This week end I´ve finished Mini´s room. I want all to be ready. Just in case. Still 3 weeks (hopefully not more) to go. Those of you who have been following me for years probably know this has been a long, hard way. It has taken time and guts to believe this actually happening to us. Now I have decided to go all in. It scares me making the room ready, and thought like "what if...." cross my mind every day. It´s been a long pregnancy. And not a happy clappy naive one. And I have accepted that. I´ve wanted this for so long. Last year I almost gave up. I thought I´d never get to experience carrying a child, becoming a mum. This time we´re going all the way. We have to. Yet it´s s scary to say, because there´s no guarantee. I know. Therefore I plan nothing for the future. I have learned to take it all bit by bit- appreciating everything that´s good. Doing things I love. Treating myself and others good. Allowed some darkness to come through in between. But always coming back to the light. And then, one day, hopefully, it will all be here. And life will be even better. Crazy banana.